Security...at one point in my younger life this is all that I wanted, to be secure and taken care of. I am today officially without job, actually in between jobs, but still, today I am not employed. My car, Keanu, has been dropped off at the port along with most all of my belongings...I hope to be picking them up in Maui next week, but until then I am without job, car, or any possessions...I am free today. I have nothing today, but I am free...
Correction. I have something. As my dear friend Anne Stone pointed out to me recently when I shared with her that I didn't have a penny, she reminded me, "but Malathy, you have the ability to make a penny..." And it is in this that I suppose I have security, the security and confidence in myself, the knowing that I know how to survive and get along and thereby have the security I need and want in my life. I suppose that is my security, I am my own security.
I have always wanted to be taken care of, but I have learned here in Kauai that I can take care of myself...and perhaps that is what I leave here with. I have had wonderful and happy times, but lonely and sad times also, and I have taken care of myself.
So I have always wanted security, and I suppose that through this journey that is my life, I have found that I can create the security that I need, while still having the freedom I need to live and experience my life...not bad, not bad at all...#iammyownsecurity #maui # yolo
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